I’m very pleased that MTV has opted to air Gone Too Far, the intervention/recovery series DJ AM filmed with them prior to his relapse and subsequent overdose. I never really doubted that they’d air it — there’s way too much money to be made — but they are doing so with the support of Adam’s family. “It is our hope through airing this show that people will get to see the side of Adam that we knew and loved, not just the celebrity DJ, but the honest and caring person who gave so much of himself to help others,” the family said in a statement earlier this month. “The decision to air the show has been difficult, but we do this with the profound belief that it will inspire others to seek help.”

I couldn’t have said it better myself. I’m really, really glad that people will get to see Adam for who he was — someone very aware of the perils and powers of addiction and someone who dedicated his life to his own recovery and to the recovery of others. I hope this show will help people get clean and sober and help people stay clean and sober, because that’s what Adam was about.

MTV has a trailer you can watch here. The show premieres October 12. (Side note: I think the voiceover is Mandy Moore.)

Investigators have closed the case on Adam Goldstein (known as DJ AM) after ruling it to be an accidental overdose. When Goldstein was found in his apartment, he had six Oxycontins in his stomach, as well as one lodged in his throat. He had several other drugs in his system, including cocaine, hydrocodone, Ativan, Klonopin, Xanax, Benadryl and Levamisole, a drug that is often cut with cocaine. When he was found, there was also a crack pipe next to his body.

The cause of death is the same thing that killed Heath Ledger, an uneducated mix of over-the-counter and prescription drugs that would be lethal in anyone’s system. As we’ve said time and again around here, this death is particularly tragic as Goldstein, a recovering crack addict, had been sober for about nine years when he passed away. The relapse has been attributed to everything from the guilt he suffered after being one of the only two survivors in a plane crash (along with buddy and Blink-182 drummer Travis Barker) and the recent break up of him and his model girlfriend, Hayley Wood.

Shortly before his passing, DJ AM filmed eight episodes of an Intervention-like show for MTV titled, Gone Too Far.  The basic premise of the show focuses on AM confronting users in a tough-love manner, urging them to enter rehab.  After his death at the end of August, the network scrapped the October 5th premiere date and shelved the project.  A few weeks have passed and now MTV has been communicating with Adam’s family in hopes that they’ll bless the show and agree on an airdate.

This will go one of two ways.  Option 1:  Viewers will think AM was a hypocrite, considering his own tragic end was caused by drug use.  Option 2:  Viewers will realize the true fragility of sobriety.  It’s never a “done deal” and addicts must truly work at it one day at a time … for life.

Option 3 is a given:  Everyone will watch, ratings will be high.  People are just too curious about young, dead celebs.

R.I.P. Adam.  I hope your show saves a life.

Travis Barker just Tweeted a link to this DJ AM tribute video a few hours ago.  According to the video description, it was the same montage that was played at Adam’s memorial service.  It’s interesting to see pictures of Adam at different stages in his life.  His appearance was so drastically different pre- and post-gastric bypass surgery.  And then there was his shoe collection — 600 pairs.

With the link, Travis posted the message : “This vid makes me smile from ear 2 ear and tear at the same time, miss u homie.”

People is reporting that DJ AM’s death may have been more than just an overdose.  It may have been intentional.

Though the official cause of death hasn’t been announced, a law enforcement official reveals that Adam had eight undigested OxyContin pills in his stomach and a ninth one in his mouth.  That’s in addition to the crack and crack pipe found in his bed.  

Mirrors were propped up against both the entrance door to the apartment as well as Adam’s bedroom door.  In the living room, police found a Valentine’s Day card from his ex, Haley Wood (she denies that they were broken up at the time of Adam’s death) as well as several pictures of the couple.  

Now, police are investigating the theory that DJ AM may have committed suicide.  Either way, it sounds like Adam was in a whole lot of personal pain.  I hope he’s at peace.

Now that DJ AM has gone to the big discotheque in the sky, one of his friends has come forward and shared an email that Adam sent to him exactly one month after he survived last year’s plane crash:

“Man this is almost too much for me to handle right now,” Goldstein, known as DJ AM, wrote.

“I had no idea how the survivors guilt could have felt. I’m a mess though man. I just hope time will fix this depressed feeling asap,” he continued.

“I can’t go on being this miserable.”

DJ AM was clearly loved by so many people as evidenced by the huge reaction when news of his death broke.  It’s sad that he wasn’t able to get the help that he needed to work through the trauma he experienced.  In fatal events, survivor’s often feel a sense of guilt that they did something wrong that caused the death of others involved in the incident.  One of my relatives struggled with this as well as post-traumatic stress.  That shit doesn’t go away without counseling.

Sometimes life is just a fucking struggle — it’s important to reach out and ask for help and to just keep asking when it all feels overwhelming.  Rest in peace, Adam.

Well, I got the memo yesterday that most of you are sick of the DJ AM coverage on the site the past couple of days, and I get it: You don’t know who he was, you don’t care who he was and he died of a drug overdose. However, there has been a reason behind all of the stories I’ve posted and that’s because we are a celebrity gossip site. We cover celebrities and their actions and interests, and DJ AM was at the heart of many celebrities lives. He was a friend and a co-worker, a confidant and system of support. Many of the people we talk about here every day have been affected by his loss, and the news reflects that. So, I will burden you with one more post and then after that I’m done unless any major news breaks on the story.

Last night Blink-182 continued their reunion tour in Hartford, CT. The whole band, but most notably Travis Barker had an extremely strong bond with AM and the two not only shared work, but they survived a plane crash together. At one point during the show, the band’s frontman Mark Hoppus paid tribute to his friend and let the audience know how hard it was for them to play that night. He concluded his tribute by holding a moment of silence in honor of his friend, and then the band went right in to playing one of their more recent hits “Down”.

“I am absolutely heartbroken. For those of us lucky enough to have known him, Adam radiated a contagious exuberance for life and also personified the very definition of a true friend. To say that he will be missed beyond words is an understatement. My heart goes out to his loved ones.”

- Mandy Moore speaks out about the death of her ex-boyfriend, DJ AM.

While Adam Goldstein was probably best known for his high-profile relationships with Mandy Moore and Nicole Richie, his passion was music and he was truly talented at what he did. It’s come to my attention that AM’s mixes may not be accessible or that well known by most, so a friend of AM’s sent me one of his Power 106 mixes (which is 120 minutes long in full) and I pulled a section of that and decided to post it here for those of you who are unfamiliar with exactly what kind of party he brought.

The music is eclectic, well-selected and blended to perfection. Sit back, listen and get a taste of why AM was loved by celebrities and average club-goers alike.

The photo above was snapped last night as model and DJ AM’s recent ex girlfriend Hayley Wood watched medics remove his body from his New York apartment. Some close to the pair are saying that it was their split that may have been AM’s breaking point on his road to stay sober.

The two broke up a few weeks ago when Hayley decided that it was over. AM was already in a fragile place and did not want the relationship to end. While he put on a brave front, throwing out the first pitch at a Mets game and fulfilling all of his work obligations, friends say that the weeks leading up to his death were clearly hard for him. AM was distant, started blowing people off, was hard to get in touch with, all things that were uncharacteristic.

Woods is just another person on a very long list of those who will remember and miss Adam Goldstein.

Molls has done a fantastic job of keeping everyone updated on the death of Adam Goldstein, aka DJ AM. I want to weigh in briefly. I know a lot of people are struggling to come to terms with his death right now. I’m one of them. I knew Adam. We weren’t by any means close, but our social circles overlapped when I lived in LA, and I had the pleasure of seeing him every now and again.

I know that in the coverage of his passing, the media is going to focus on the meth pipe in his apartment, and on the prescription drugs, and, of course, on the fact that he died of an overdose. We’ll have to cover the story as it breaks, because that’s what we do around here as a business.

But I want to take at least one post to focus on the man Adam was before this horrible, tragic relapse. He had been committed to sobriety for many years, and he took his recovery seriously. He was active in the recovery community, and he helped many drug addicts and alcoholics as they battled the relentless demons of addiction. This is a man who was out there saving lives every day. He took his own addiction seriously, and he took his own recovery seriously, and perhaps that’s why this is so frustrating for me today. It seems unfair that some people get to abuse drugs for years and years and years, never once trying to clean up their act, and they seem to live forever in spite of it. From what I’ve heard, Adam’s relapse was recent. He slipped and then he didn’t get much of a chance to get back up on his feet. His addiction just kind of swooped in out of nowhere and got him.

I hate the idea of him dying as an addict after all the years he fought and worked so hard to stay clean. I hate the idea that that is how the media might remember him. I hate him dying like this after surviving against such great odds, time and time again. It’s incredibly frustrating, and I’m sad and I’m angry. But I’m using the tiny little podium that I have to remind you guys that, although he ultimately lost the battle with addiction, he really did come at it with both guns blazing. Many others are clean and sober and alive today because of the impact Adam had on their lives. The man brought far more good and beauty into the world than his tragic death would indicate.

RIP, Adam. You are missed.

Can we talk about Facebook, Twitter and fate for a moment?

I’m working on about eight hours of sleep.  Eight hours of sleep over  a three-day period.  So, while I’m awake and annoyed by the cacophony of snoring around me, I stalk old boyfriends on Facebook.  I am relieved to say that I definitely dodged a couple of bullets in relation to conquests from my twenties.

Facebook was recently re-designed to look like a live-time cluster fuck stream of status updates.  Or, you know, Twitter.  Twitter-I’m not really sure why I participate.  I use it as a tool to drive a little traffic to my own paltry blog, but other than that, Twitter leaves me at a loss for words.  Now that I think of it, I reckon that is technology my family would be interested in patenting.  Anyway, where am I going with this?  I have no idea.  Oh, DJ AM.  So, I was on Twitter this morning, letting John Mayer know that his tweets are far too existential for a mindless social networking platform when I saw DJ AM update that he is flying to Miami tomorrow.

Let me be clear; I am not a huge believer of signs.  I believe that they exist and happen, but they have to be pretty significant before I can accept their presence and validity.  For example, I find pennies on the ground all the time.  I do not believe that they are confirmation that someone from heaven is thinking of me.  I believe they are confirmation that pennies do not get the same respect as, say, quarters.  I’m sick to tell you this, but I recently caught my brother throwing a few pennies away.  And yes, I did jump in my trash can and get them out.

However, let’s examine an example of a big sign that must be recognized:  You’ve been involved in two plane crashes.  One in which you were fifty percent of the survivor count, and another which produced no survivors that you were fortunate to cancel out of at the last minute.  DJ AM tweeted this morning that he’s flying to Miami tomorrow and he wants God to go first.  Dude, God is talking to you.  Loudly.  There is no subtlety here.  Listen to His message:  “Amtrak.”